Thursday, October 29, 2015

Seasons of Love

I interrupt this blog hiatus (Temporarily? Permanently? Time will tell) with an important announcement: I am pregnant.

We were surprised in late August to discover this fact since we had not been “trying.” In fact, full disclosure here, it took a while for me to adjust to the news. What would this mean for our work, which we were just starting to figure out? What would this mean for our finances, our time together as a couple, our ability to sleep at night for the next two years? What was this going to do to my body? All the things I claimed to hold loosely were suddenly being revealed as more precious to me than the very life of another human being.

Why do I share this? Because it is the real context in which God has begun to teach me more about love. Not as an idea that sounds nice on paper, or a recreational activity that I can fit into my calendar, but as the primary call He has placed on my life. God calls me to welcome and love each person He puts in my path, whether or not it’s convenient, whether or not I feel “ready” to sign up for it, whether or not it will change everything. 

What I am learning is that is not just about children. This is the basic call of the Christian life—a pattern of self-giving that is modeled not after a family full of kids but a celibate man who hung on a Cross.  The man Jesus who, on the night He was handed over to suffering and death, took bread and broke it and said, “this is my body, given for you.”

For whatever reason in this season, God has chosen to teach me about this Love through the gift of a child. It is one way that He is helping me to understand more fully what it meant for Him to give Himself for my life and what it means for me to follow in His footsteps and give of myself for the life of others—whether that be a child in my womb or a neighbor across the street or a nameless refugee on the other side of the world.

How is God is calling you to love in this season? Whatever it is, don’t be afraid. Receive it as a gift and let Him expand your heart accordingly. It will hurt. It will change everything. And it will be worth it.